Owed To A Blog

I just read Jill's latest entry on the DXH. And it’s funny, I’ve also stopped writing in my own blog, for what sounds like the same reason: things are just a little different now.

We still have ups and downs, I still get happy and mad, and I still do and say things I wish I could take back. I’ve got plenty of anecdotes I could share (like catching Jeep Boy puffing the cheeba in his room one night, or getting a call from the police at 1:00 am when Hammerhead and a friend he was "spending the night with" were caught breaking curfew. To name just two.).

But writing about it daily, or even weekly, at this point, feels less like sorting through my reactions to challenging new relationships and more like exploiting the dynamics of old familiar ones, for entertainment's sake.


Maybe this blog has served its purpose. Writing about the things I had difficulty recognizing, accepting, and managing when it came to being a stepmother has forced me to own all of it, to examine myself and my motivations even when I didn't want to, and ultimately, helped me see some ways I can do all of this just a little bit better.

Then again, maybe it's just summer break, and maybe things will pick right back up again in the fall, full force and then some.

We'll see...